Listening to: ghibli soundtrack music box
Playing: league of legends
Eating: vanilla pirouette
without words to write, I waver back and forth.
unable to express how i feel
unable to accept the feelings inside myself
this dilemma is like throwing water to a blazing fire
But... it can go one of two ways
one being the water can turn out the fire leaving nothing but ashe
or two being that the water makes the fire burn higher and brighter
so which one will it be???
Will i follow whats inside my heart, which i desperately want to allow myself to do
Or will i keep my word and keep a promise to a friend which will result in waiting and prolonging my feelings
for now while im thinking of what the resulting action will be
I will hide my tears with a smile, and dream about your embrace while I drift into the abyss of my mind
but for now dreams are all they will be...
until im finally allowed to freely give myself to another, to you... one day.